Change

People change, I understand that.
Believe me, I do.

I am having trouble finding words because How can you be mad at someone for changing, when you, yourself have changed.

People change for the better.
People change for the worst.

Change can be brought upon by peer influence, something major happenning in one's life, or even to impress someone. But then sometimes denial steps in. Denial of changing " I haven't changed. What are you talking about?"
I will talk from my own personal experience.
I was someone who was shy and insecure and very much alone. At the same time, I had the most friends, I was involved at school, and 3 guys liked me.( that was big for elementary school)
I would find myself hoping to be alone and wishing people would just go away because if I talked to them, what would I say? I didn't know how to create conversation. I was not outgoing, there was nothing special there. There were always people who were better. People who had created a name for themselves. I was not one of them.
Then highschool happenned. This was my chance. This was my chance to be someone who created a name for herself. Someone people knew. Thats when I changed. I became someone who created conversation, had a lunch table, did well in school, and gave effort. I became outgoing. That was something to be proud of.
I now find myself in a limbo.
I am shy with people I have never met. But when I am with people who are my friends, I am crazy. It's a mix of starting new again and not knowing what to do. I don't have a plan this time.
I like plans, no I love plans.
Plans keep things in order and undercontrol. You just follow the plans and everything turns out well. I don't have a plan to run by anymore and that scares me.
But everything will turn out ok.
Everything is fine.

right?